Sunday, October 31, 2010

Anyone still there?

Argh--more than two months since I last posted . . . I've logged on a lot, but was never sure what to say. Not that there's any big news to post! I've been back at work for a couple of months, and that always gets me down. I feel like I should be home with the kids, even though that's not possible for us right now. It makes me kind of feel like a failure. It's probably just trying to keep up with everything (work, kids, house, etc.) that's getting to me, on top of missing the kids. We're taking a spiritual formation class, which is amazing, and we're really working on figuring out where God wants us to go with our lives, so I'm hopeful. Maybe being home full time will never be possible for me, but I hope we'll figure out where God wants me to be and then make that happen.

So, tonight we start night-weaning Sarah. We said a novena to St. Jude a couple of weeks ago, after reading this post. On the fifth night, she slept for eight hours straight--longer than she has slept in her entire life! (She slept for seven hours once when she was about a week old, and since then, the longest stretch has been five hours.) The next day, she developed a fever due to teething (darn eye teeth!), and she's been having a rough time until the last day or so. I go on a business trip in just under two weeks, so we're giving this a shot. It's about the gentlest system I've come across. But I'm worried that she'll be hurt and that our relationship will be changed permanently. Am I nuts? She's 15 months old, and I just really need some sleep.

Anyway. Let's see if I can start posting here again--I think it would probably be good if I put some of my thoughts into words . . .


HereWeGoAJen said...

I night weaned a few times and it didn't take the first two times. She just wasn't ready. When she was eighteen months old, it just clicked that time and it was ridiculously easy. All I did was cut out one feeding per night. The first night, I didn't feed her until after 1am. Then 3am. Then 5am, etc. Soon she was sleeping much better.

Then we went on vacation and she lost the night weaning and is sleeping terribly again. She's coming up on two now, so I am going to start actual weaning now. I just think it is time. Well, logically, I think that. Emotionally, I am a wreck. But seriously, I could use some sleep too.

Awaiting a Child of God:) said...

Awe, glad you are back on here:) I am out in Omaha now and Dr. H just did the lap and discovered endo and PCOS...ugh! I'm happy though to read that you were blessed with two little ones. Hope all is well and I look forward to you becoming more apart of the blogger world again:)


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