Sunday, October 31, 2010

Anyone still there?

Argh--more than two months since I last posted . . . I've logged on a lot, but was never sure what to say. Not that there's any big news to post! I've been back at work for a couple of months, and that always gets me down. I feel like I should be home with the kids, even though that's not possible for us right now. It makes me kind of feel like a failure. It's probably just trying to keep up with everything (work, kids, house, etc.) that's getting to me, on top of missing the kids. We're taking a spiritual formation class, which is amazing, and we're really working on figuring out where God wants us to go with our lives, so I'm hopeful. Maybe being home full time will never be possible for me, but I hope we'll figure out where God wants me to be and then make that happen.

So, tonight we start night-weaning Sarah. We said a novena to St. Jude a couple of weeks ago, after reading this post. On the fifth night, she slept for eight hours straight--longer than she has slept in her entire life! (She slept for seven hours once when she was about a week old, and since then, the longest stretch has been five hours.) The next day, she developed a fever due to teething (darn eye teeth!), and she's been having a rough time until the last day or so. I go on a business trip in just under two weeks, so we're giving this a shot. It's about the gentlest system I've come across. But I'm worried that she'll be hurt and that our relationship will be changed permanently. Am I nuts? She's 15 months old, and I just really need some sleep.

Anyway. Let's see if I can start posting here again--I think it would probably be good if I put some of my thoughts into words . . .

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