Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Non-update

Wow, I can't believe it's been almost three months since I've updated. Things are generally good. The kids are great. I'm really struggling with what I should be doing. I absolutely hate leaving the kids to go to work. Hate it. This morning, I left while Mr. X was still home. As I tried to make my lunch (Mr. X was in the bathroom), both kids grabbed my legs and cried. I just lost it. I want to be home with them so much. Right now, we can't make it work financially. But it's just so much harder than I thought it would be. I don't even work that many hours, and we do some tag-teaming, and I do some work at night when the kids are sleeping, but still. I feel like I'm running constantly to get half of what I'd like to do done. Anyway. I have a lot to think through, but nothing's going to change immediately.

5 comments:

Thankful said...

Hi! Thanks for the update - it's great to hear from you. I can't imagine how hard it would be to leave the kiddos at home to go to work. What a difficult sacrifice to make. Take care!

Vent-ilation said...

Great to see you back for a quick update. I can totally relate -- it's hard leaving my little man at daycare then heading off to work. I miss him before I've even left the driveway. But as my DH has told me countless times (maybe it's sinking in) -- if we want to give him the kind of life we want to give him, it's what we have to do. (Not extravagant by any means, believe me!) And we're also setting a good example for our kids, too, about responsibility, etc... Still, it's the hardest thing in the world. Hang in there!

Fertile Thoughts said...

It's great to see an update from you :) That must be so difficult to leave your kiddos every morning. I can't imagine, but I understand what you mean. We're trying to figure out our financials too so i can stay home when the baby comes. Either way I'll probably have to work from home...it's just rough!
many prayers,
Amber

Tridentine Wife said...

Yay you're back. I'm sorry you're having to deal with the struggle of leaving your kids each day to go to work. I know things will get better, but I'm sure it doesn't get any easier and I'm with you on wanting to get a million things done and not having enough time. Two kids to take care of is crazy!

mrsblondies said...

I'm glad you're back, and I'm sorry that you are in a rough spot between financial considerations and being able to spend time with your children.

 

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